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May 14, 2003

Bloodletting: a confession

Michele gave blood earlier this evening at the church down the road. I have a confession to make: I have never, in my entire life, donated blood. While Michele dutifully disappeared into the mysterious blood-giving room to donate blood, I sat outside sheepishly reading a library book, trying not to make eye contact with the lady managing the front desk.

I have just one reason for not giving blood, but it's a compelling one in my eyes: I hate needles. I mean, I really, really hate needles. Just the thought of having a needle buried in my skin is enough to make me physically cringe; the idea of lying still for 45 minutes with a needle stuck deep into my arm draining my blood fills me with a horror I cannot express in words. I'm quite certain that I'd succumb to a panic attack within minutes.

This secret fills me with shame everytime I hear a Red Cross commercial asking for blood donations, and everytime a local church/school/organization sets up a blood drive and I am forced to weasel my way out of participating. If there were any other way to give blood, any other way at all that didn't involve puncturing my skin with a needle and leaving it impaled in my arm for an hour, I would do it. I swear.

But not as long as the needle is involved.

May 13, 2003

Dead Sea Scrolls

Yesterday, Michele and I accompanied our friends Jay and Elizabeth to see the Dead Sea Scrolls exhibit at the Grand Rapids Public Museum. We'd been meaning to go for some time, and finally got around to doing so when Jay took the initiative and secured us tickets. The Dead Sea Scrolls are an example of something that I find fascinating but about which I know next to nothing, so I was looking forward to learning a bit about them.

All in all, I was quite pleased with the exhibit, which was educational and accessible at the same time. There were about a dozen scrolls fragments, most of them fairly small, which seemed (from the information provided) to be reasonably representative of the many different types of manuscripts recovered at the Qumran site. Much of the exhibit focused on the lifestyle of the Qumran community, which most scholars apparently believe to belong to the Essene branch of Judaism. According to the exhibit, the Qumran community was small, entirely male, and rigidly ascetic.

What I wasn't expecting was that the exhibit would have an emotional affect on me. It was difficult for me to read about the lifestyle and history of the Qumran community without feeling a shiver of sadness at the thought of the community's ultimate fate: destruction at the hands of the Roman army. They believed so strongly in their interpretation of the will of God that they chose to separate themselves from normal society, subject themselves to an ascetic lifestyle in a hellish desert environment, and devote their lives to preparation for the Armageddon they expected to arrive at any moment. As one of the exhibit's plaques rather glibly pointed out, they probably faced the onslaught of the Roman army with the firm, and quite understandable, belief that the Apocalypse had arrived.

It makes me sad to think that their Armageddon came and went, heralding not the final victory of Good over Evil but rather the bloody end of Jewish resistance to the hated Roman rule, another footnote in the brutal history of the Middle East. Certainly, Armageddon did not end in the way Qumran community confidently expected. What thoughts went through their minds when they heard reports of Roman soldiers descending on their isolated community? Were they ecstatic at the fulfillment of their prophecies, or did they panic in fear at the thought of being caught unprepared by the End? Did they charge defiantly from their caves and houses, secure in their knowledge that victory would be theirs? Did their faith waver at the sight of Roman spears and shields? In the ensuing slaughter, did there come a point when they realized how horribly they had been wrong? Did they die without understanding the religious implications of their defeat, or did they die feeling betrayed by God?

Maybe I think about this stuff too much.

May 9, 2003

Games, games, games

In these times of war, international tension, deadly disease, and apocalyptic tension, it seems appropriate for me to spend a few moments discussing my favorite video games. Jointly inspired by a recent post by Ron and a book loaned to me by Ed on the topic of children and fantasy/game violence, I thought it'd be an interesting exercise to think through my 20-odd years of gaming and endeavor to make a list of my favorites.

Following Ron's model, I'll list my favorites in rough order of preference (although without breaking them down into categories), followed by the platform on which I originally played them. It was quite difficult to rank some of these:

  1. Planescape: Torment (PC)
  2. Wasteland (C64)
  3. Zork (C64)
  4. Ultima IV: Quest of the Avatar (Apple ][C)
  5. Starcraft (PC)
  6. Battletech: The Crescent Hawk's Inception (C64)
  7. Final Fantasy (NES)
  8. The Legend of Zelda (NES)
  9. Doom 2 (PC)
  10. Ninja Gaiden 2: The Dark Sword of Chaos (NES)
  11. Castlevania 3: Dracula's Curse (NES)
  12. System Shock 2
  13. Beyond Zork (Mac)
  14. Fallout (PC)
  15. Half-life (PC)
  16. Airborne Ranger (C64)
  17. Ultima VI: The False Prophet (Amiga)
  18. Ninja Gaiden (NES)
  19. Hexen (PC)
  20. The Secret of Monkey Island (PC)
  21. Battle of Britain (Amiga)
  22. Wing Commander (Amiga)
  23. Quake (PC)
  24. Castlevania 2: Simon's Quest (NES)
  25. Shadow of the Beast (Amiga)
  26. Jedi Knight 2: Jedi Outcast (PC)
  27. Unreal Tournament 2003 (PC)
  28. Mechwarrior 2: Mercenaries (PC)
  29. Lode Runner (C64)
  30. Dragon Warrior (NES)

Reactions? Did you play any of these games and like/dislike them? What have I left out?